I will admit to you that over the course of the past two years, I have been scared at times because of this blog. Scared of standing up for what I believe. Scared of what people will say and how they will perceive me. Scared of the criticism I would receive.
I know this blog has such a miniature impact in the blogging world, but it’s still my place where I share what I really feel and really believe. Therefore, it makes it very personal.
And then I think of my own father. He has preached for years now without backing down. He has withstood criticism and rejection both from within and without. And still held firm to the teachings of God’s Word.
I am reminded of our own pastor here in Idaho. He has received blow after blow from critics who would try to make him change his mind. Yet he continues to live out the Bible the way all Christians should.
And I think of my precious husband. He does not measure himself to what others think – something I fail in frequently. He has multiple times urged me to remember that unless someone can prove to me from the Bible where I am wrong, then I must not back down.
These men are my inspiration. They are willing to take a stand that goes against what the majority of American churches believe today. They know they will get critics down their throats, but they stand anyway.
So how can I, a simple wife and mother, do any different?
For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears;
And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables.
2 Timothy 4:3-4
I was given a link to a sermon by Paul Washer today that had me in tears. I’ve seen it described as the sermon “Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God” . . . only to a younger generation. It is not a sermon that will make you feel good. It is not one that will “tickle your ears” as the verse above says. But it should be one that brings us all back to the Bible in repentance.
Even if you don’t have the time, make the time to listen to this sermon. You won’t regret it.
So even though I’ve been scared because of the criticism that has come from posting what I believe, I cannot say that I regret it. It has made me dig into the Word because of this urgency in my heart. I must know what I believe for the sake of not only my children, but that of my very own soul.
In just a few short days, I will have not five, but six children, Lord willing. Whether we open our mouths or not, my husband and I are teaching our little ones what we believe the Word of God says. They are going to come into contact with deceptive teachings that our generation has not yet fully seen. If they are not grounded in God’s Word, how will they know what is Biblical and what is not?
And as we stand with shaky knees, this is my prayer:
Dear mothers and fathers who, like me, are scared to take a stand . . .
“Let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.”