It was 4:00 am and Lowell and I were both awake. Did you catch the A.M. part? That’s a pretty important detail here. It was pitch black outside and my husband proceeds to tell me he had the most wonderful dream. No, I hadn’t suddenly become twenty years younger and we hadn’t won the lottery. His dream consisted of a new kind of ice cream sandwiches that he woke up so excited about he could almost taste them.
Now unbeknownst to him, there were two boxes of ice cream sandwiches sitting out in our freezer, waiting for Derek’s birthday party at school on Monday. Here is where my logical self was arguing with my not-so-logical self. Do I tell him that for once in probably 2 years we actually have ice cream sandwiches on the premises? Or do I hold my secret because I’m not quite sure there’s enough to go around at the party?
Well, the soft side of my heart gave way and I told him. “Uh, we actually have some ice cream sandwiches in the freezer.” “WHAT?!!” You’ve never seen bedcovers get thrown off so fast. For that matter, you’ve probably never seen a grown man so excited for ice cream sandwiches at 4:00 in the morning.
But you’ve probably also never seen a wife grin so hugely as she watched her husband sit on the mudroom step enjoying every last bite of that scrumptious dessert. He was savoring the moment and it made me happy.
Then I had to think, how many times does God hand me something and I say “oh, but i wish….” All God wants me to do is thank Him for the blessings he gives me and then enjoy them, whether big or small.
The smell of a newly-born babe, the touch of a child’s hand in mine, waking up to my faithful husband beside me every morning, breathing deeply of crisp fall air, enjoying the smell of coffee, hearing the words “I love you”, feeling the peace of forgiveness. I am learning to live in the moment and let God take care of the future.
One evening when my spirit was struggling, God reached down and gave me a moment to calm my soul. Holding my littlest child, I felt his sweet lips kiss my cheek and a soft, pudgy arm encircle my neck. I wanted to close my eyes and remember that moment forever.