God has been in my kitchen again. We’ve wrestled and wrestled until I’m not sure who is coming out the winner.
I’ve pleaded and begged. And I feel like David when he said, “I am weary of my crying: my throat is dried: mine eyes fail while I wait for my God.” Psalm 69:3
The wrestling match finally comes to an end. But God says no.
For I found out this week that my mother indeed has cancer.
What do we do after pounding on Heaven’s door, only to have the answer be no?
Maybe someday I will find that I can say as my precious mother said a couple months ago when this nightmare began: “Can we not accept good at the hand of the Lord, and can we not accept evil?”
This is my mother who bandaged my skinned knees, made my little girl dresses, baked my favorite chocolate cake, prayed for me day and night, rejoiced at my baptism, cried at my wedding, and was there for my child’s birth.
I’m not sure if I’ll ever attain to the level of Godly womanhood that my mother has achieved, but when I grow up, I want to be just like her.
But for now, I need to go see her, feel her, hug her, and cry with her.
And I pray that by the time I get back, I will be able to say with my mother, “Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
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The 4 Muskateers says
Kendra~ My heart goes out to each of you…my heart aches…You have a very special momma and she is very dear to me as well…Massive hugs and many many prayers…we love you all
Anonymous says
Oh Kendra, I am so sorry about your mother. My heart aches for you and your family. May God bless and comfort you through this time.
In christian love, Anna Helmuth
Kendra Graber says
Thank you!!
Marvin Mohler says
Kendra, so~so sorry. You & your parents are in our prayers.
Anonymous says
Kendra, so sorry to hear the news about your Mother. I too have much love for her. I do not know the particulars but Cancer does not immediately mean death. I speak from my experience as an oncology nurse and my experience as a Cancer patient. God is in Control. Trust Him! John 11:4 “This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God might be glorified thereby.” Keeping your family in our prayers and sending our love.
Pat Helmuth
Kendra Graber says
Thanks so much for your encouragement. Right now they are calling it stage one of endometrial cancer. And hopefully it is all contained to where a hysterectomy will take care of it. This is what we are praying!!
Anonymous says
Your mom and I had a real good chat at the school picnic this evening. You are both so special and are both in my prayers.
Love you, Mom G
Holly says
No words…just ever so sorry!
Praying for you all~
Anonymous says
Kendra, I am so sorry to hear about your mother’s illness. She, along with your family, is in our prayers. A few months ago a friend of mine sent me a link to a doctor in the US who is fighting cancer effectively. His name is Dr. Burzinski. Maybe you have heard of him. If not, I am sure you will be most interested to find out about him and his researches. May our Father in heaven fill your heart with His peace. Has He not promised through Isaiah: “Fear thou not, for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” Is. 41: 10
Elisabeth from France
Kendra Graber says
Thank you, Elisabeth. I will keep this info and we will see what the doctor says on Tuesday. ~Blessings
Ashlyn @ Consider the Lilies says
So sorry to hear about your mom! She will be in my prayers daily!
Anonymous says
Kendra~ My heart is crying for you all. Most of all you will be in my prayers constantly. I Love your family & am so blessed by you guys!
Love ya, Angela